Part III will come whenever…

Communication is the root of all relationships. Love is not. Without communication there is nothing and without GOOD communication you really have shit. Finding out where things go wrong with communication in the relationship can be a difficult task at hand. And the more difficult task is (once the problem is identified) correcting the lack of good communication. Lack of communication can lead to problems in a relationship about an endless among of subjects. Children, money, career, social life, sex…

Fuck the dumb.

I am tired.

I am tired of being depressed. I am tired of my hormones taking over my emotions. I am tired of not being understood. I am tired of arguing. I am tired of reaching out and feeling like I am not being reached to. I am tired of being broke. I am tired of not being mentally and physically healed. I am tired of not feeling beautiful anymore. I am tired of not feeling sexy anymore. I am tired of feeling like I cannot provide for my children. I am tired of falling asleep at work. I am tired of being late to work. I am tired of feeling like I do not get anything done. I am tired of not being able to pursue my career orientated goals. I am tired of not writing at missnexus.com regularly. I am tired of feeling and lost inside. I am tired of not being focused. I am tired of procrastinating. Did I say I am tired of arguing? I am tired of double standards in relationships. I am tired of the unreasonably high expectations. I am tired of being resentful to you. I am tired of hurting inside. I am tired of not having a good memory anymore. I am tired of being easily frustrated and overwhelmed. I am tired of crying inside and out. I am tired of feeling like I have to prove myself to you.

I need time to heal. Let me have it.

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