I’m not really feeling today’s Friday Five questions *sigh* Apparently I’m not the only one.

I’m always thankful when Fridays come around though; don’t have to deal with customers for a whole two days. Meanwhile I’m still searching for a job that will allow me to put my degree and education to use. I’m tired of having to settle for less, but I still have to make a living. Who’s gonna pay the bills… no one but ME. So sometimes it feels like I (temporarily) have to settle for less. I’m not going to give up on my goals. I glance at my degree daily and I even have my resolutions hanging up on my desk. Graduate school is a must, but it seems so far beyond my reach at this point in my life. I play my life back like an old VHS and wonder where I went wrong or what I could have done instead of one thing over another.

Regrets? No. Curious? Yes.

What if I called back the recruiter in 1995 and told her, “Yes, sign me up for the Army,” instead of “I’m sorry, I’m not interested because I’m going to go to college.” Or what if in winter of 1995, I applied to this university instead of this one? Or in 1999, what if I decided to stay a fifth year at Washington University, so I could go abroad to Egypt and study at the American University in Cairo for a year, instead of taking two foreign languages during my senior year so I could graduate on time within four years, for fear of being in further debt with student loans?

Those are a few of the major what-ifs that stick out in my mind almost daily.

I truly believe that I am on the right path, but I’m taking the long, cross-country route to my destination.

I’m looking for a shortcut right about now.

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