2007 April | Step Into the Nexus

3. Shop. I like to shop by myself because I can shop as long as I want and buy what I want, without someone saying things like, “Do you need that?” or “Are you done yet?”

4. Shower. Unless I am feeling romantic, I like to shower and bathe alone. I love my ME time.

5. Research. I often find it difficult to do intense research in a group setting.

6. Housework. So yeah, I am not the cleanest person on the block, but yeah when I do housework I rather do it alone.

7. Cooking. Yes, this is separate from housework. I do not like someone telling me that I did not put enough of such and such in the meal or I need to put something else in it. Are you cooking?

8. Pray. Sometimes it may be appropriate and comforting to pray with loved ones… but I generally like to pray alone.

9. Napping. I like to nap alone because I have control over when I want to get up or if I want to bum around longer.

10. Writing. I cannot get the creative juices flowing with someone over my shoulder.

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Former Russian Leader Yeltsin Dies

April 23rd, 2007 at 5:36pm | 10 views

MOSCOW, Russia (CNN) — Former Russian President Boris Yeltsin has died at the age of 76, the Kremlin said on Monday.

Yeltsin, who had suffered health problems since resigning from office on December 31, 1999, suffered sudden heart failure, medical sources told Russia’s Interfax news agency.

The Kremlin said his funeral would take place amid a day of national mourning on Wednesday, The Associated Press reported.

http://www.cnn.com/2007/WORLD/europe/04/23/russia.yeltsin/index.html

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Representative Juanita Millender-McDonald Dies of Cancer

April 23rd, 2007 at 5:33pm | 9 views

LOS ANGELES, California (AP) — Rep. Juanita Millender-McDonald, a seven-term congresswoman from southern California, died late Saturday of cancer.

Millender-McDonald, who was 68, died at her home in Carson, California, said her chief of staff, Bandele McQueen.

McQueen could provide no details on what form of cancer Millender-McDonald had. He said she had been receiving hospice care.

The congresswoman had asked for a four- to six-week leave of absence from the House last week to deal with her illness.

Source: http://www.cnn.com/2007/POLITICS/04/22/millender.mcdonald.ap/index.html

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Difficult to Cope With

April 23rd, 2007 at 9:46am | 11 views

Last week, William’s labs went well… JT reported that there was minimal crying. Nurse B. called me Tuesday afternoon to let me know that William’s hemoglobin count was 8.4 and that the transfusion was set to go on Thursday. His count was 10.3 during the previous week.

William and I got ready for our monthly visit by first stopping at White Castle to pick something up to eat. The hospital food is actually pretty tasty but it is very expensive. If I am able to get food elsewhere, then I will do that. We ordered a 4 White Castle meal with fries and a drink and 2 double cheeseburgers. Of course I asked to hold the pickles and the onions. I have not liked White Castle onions in years… there is no need to wonder why your stomach hurts after eating those burgers. Most of that stems from the onions. Anyway…

We hopped back on the bus and headed to the hospital. There was a brief wait before we were seen by Nurse B. and M. but I did not mind that much at all. During the wait, William colored in the coloring books and played with the train set.

William’s weight was 32.4 pounds and height was 38 inches. He has been pretty steady at that same height and weight for the past couple of months. I am sure that a growth spurt will come this way when I least expect it. Nurse M. only had to stick William one time for the IV. I am always thankful for one stick instead of two or three or four… which leaves William in pain and me wanting to whoop someone’s ass.

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Unconscious Mutterings

April 22nd, 2007 at 10:57am | 9 views

I say … and you think … ?

1. Found :: Love
2. Male :: The one I desire
3. Spoken :: Word
4. Life :: Difficult, but a blessing
5. Tonight :: Sleepy
6. Fingernail :: Polished and filed
7. True :: Honesty and knowledge
8. Give up :: Hopeless
9. Shining :: Star
10. Everywhere :: But here…

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Resentment and Self-Hate

April 22nd, 2007 at 8:57am | 12 views

I can finally say that last week is over. On the other hand, the emotions that I felt and events that took place carry over to this week and future weeks to come.

Monday night, I was not sure how I would get through the week. I prayed, talked with JT about the issues, spoke with a good friend and took one day at a time. A couple of years ago I learned that I should not let things beyond my control worry me. This is a lesson not learned overnight though, and I think that I have only begun to put that in practice within the last year.

Why is it hard to not worry about the things outside of my control? When I say worry, I really mean, let it weigh heavily on my mind to the point where it effects other aspects of daily living. This is hard because I feel that there is a fix to the problems at hand. The fix is by no means easy and is definitely a long-term committment but still, I feel that all hope is not lost.

How do we work toward fixing the problems? Counseling, attending church, prayer, talking to the Pastor, talking to best friends, writing, music, exercising, healty diet, love for each other and self, respect, honesty and communicating with each other. I am not saying that I have all of the definite answers to the equation. Relationships are not like Differential Equations (okay maybe the tension of working through the problem is similar) but what I am saying that this is how I feel. I feel that if we do these things, the relationship will get better. I am trying to hold on to that hope.

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