Somebody tell me why my health insurance company sent me a thick brochure of listings for Mental Health and Substance Abuse Providers. Are they trying to tell me something? *twitches* For real though, I requested dental information, not mental!! It took a whole five weeks to get the wrong information.

Two things that I don’t like to talk about at work: Politics and Religion. Why? Because these are subjects that are too close to home for many and a lot of people simply can’t handle talking about politics and religion if your opinions/thoughts differ. Another reason why I don’t like to talk about religion is that a lot of people can’t understand how I don’t share their same belief. Example:

Them: “Do you believe in God?”
Me: “Yes.”
Them: “Do you believe that Jesus Christ is the son of God and your savior?”
Me: “….”

Basically, why does it matter if I believe in that or not? And you’re asking me these questions at work. You really don’t want to hear what I really believe in, so I rather you not ask. As soon as I tell them what I believe in and why I doubt this and that, they immediately start quoting Bible passages and why I am wrong and what I need to do about it. I didn’t approach you questioning your beliefs, why are you questioning mine?

By using the words ‘them’ and ‘they,’ I am referring to a great deal of people that have approached me with this subject. Agnostic, Catholic, Baptist, Jehoviah Witness, Buddhist, Muslim, Hindu… whatever I am let me be, especially at work because whatever I have to say, you are not ready for all that. I’m gonna start telling people I’m Athiest and maybe they’ll shut up or maybe not. For the record I am not Athiest.

Anyways…

Quoted: [21:18] Kinetix: so is it some rule of irc that if you don’t actually talk but just idle in channels?

Today at work, I sat across from a woman with the most hideous voice I have ever heard. Fran Drescher doesn’t even compare to this brunette. Her customers had been telling her to speak up, meanwhile I wished she would stop torturing me. If the customers only knew how treacherous her voice was on my end. Her laughter made me cringe to no end. Why did she have to torture me and ruin my day? It’s not like I wanted to be there in the first place. I was forced to hear her squeal her way through conversations three-quarters of the day. And why did I have to sit near the squealer? Aah yes, I haven’t told you how I don’t have my own desk at my job. I won’t go to deep into this daily scenario, but basically:

I was hired in October 2002 with 119 other employees. We endured a long, fairly extensive, 3 1/2 month training. Near the end of the training rumors flared that there were not enough seats for the new hires. So the powers that be (they claim it was based on a survey) decided that seats would be designated randomly and the remaining people would be referred to as a hot-seater. Lucky me, I am a hot-seater. As a hot-seater, I don’t have my own seat (obvious) and every day I have to go to a manager and get a seat assigned to me. Assigned seats are based on people who call in sick or schedule for leave. All that I have to put my files, papers and personal objects in is this:

It fucking sucks. That’s the bottom line. People who averaged a ‘C’ or perhaps lower on tests during training are sitting in there own desks. Meanwhile me, along with other co-workers, who averaged an ‘A’ push the damn carts around like idiots. I don’t even have a key for my cart, what the fuck? Very, very frustrating.

Can someone tell me why this movie was made? *shivers*

Friday Five

1. What was the last song you heard?

Blackstreet- “Deep,” from their new album Level II.

2. What were the last two movies you saw?

Daredevil and The Recruit.

3. What were the last three things you purchased?

Lunch from the cafeteria at work, birthday present for my Godson, something for my computer.

4. What four things do you need to do this weekend?

Sleep, clean up, go to a party, help my bestfriend hook up her computer.

5. Who are the last five people you talked to?

Jake, Tiffany, JT, Tessa, Mama

Look at this picture. See the dog on the right? That’s how I feel except on the left, put all of my customers there that I have to deal with. Sometimes I just don’t want to hear all that bitching, so I start to frown just like that dog. I guess it’s a good thing that I do customer service over the phone. A frown in person, would not be all that attractive.

Ten hour shifts today and tomorrow equals overtime. My eyes are extremely tired but not from a lack of sleep. I could get used to the ten hour shifts if I HAD to, but after a certain point in the day, what I look at on my computer starts to jumble up and look like alphabet soup.

Can you dig it? Suckaaaaaaaaa. Golly gee, WWE RAW is coming to town this month and I don’t have tickets *sigh* Yeah I’m a wrestling fan, SHAT UP. I’ll catch them the next time around, I suppose. WWE is one of the few shows that I still make an effort to watch on a regular basis.

I missed the first showing of the 17th Annual Soul Train Music Awards. My mom wants me to record the repeat of the event this Saturday, it better be good. Mariah Carey is scheduled to receive the 2003 Quincy Jones Award for Outstanding Career Achievements in the Field of Entertainment, and I really don’t care. Tell me what she did to deserve this?

I gotta get that Vivian Green album, her latest single is hot *runs over to mIRC*

Yikes I forgot the Friday Five (from 02.28.03)

1. What is your favorite type of literature to read (magazine, newspaper, novels, nonfiction, poetry, etc.)? Novels.

2. What is your favorite novel? The Color Purple

3. Do you have a favorite poem? (Share it!) Hmmm, not sure, probably a Maya Angelou poem.

4. What is one thing you’ve always wanted to read, or wish you had more time to read? I wish I could read more newspapers throughout the day.

5. What are you currently reading? LOTR: The Two Towers (still)…

Past Friday Fives

AAAH, I want this

Tessa made my day by sharing wavs of her as a young five year old reciting the names of the Jacksons that included Michael, Janet, LaToya, Jordan (LOL) and Jesse (ROFL) Jackson. <33 Tessa

Today, I had the most amazing nap. My nap was four hours long, and I couldn’t ask for anything better. The nap was so good that when I woke up and tried to stand, my knees were weak and wobbled all over the place. My mind is still a bit incoherent. These are the kinds of naps that I live for. There was only one bad to my superb nap.. when I woke up it interrupted my dream.

Have you ever had a dream that you were very deep into it.. bad or good and the next thing you know you wake up, but it’s not quite a normal wake up. It feels like you were pulled out of your sleep. I call this the Matrix wake up. Think about in The Matrix when the characters were in the matrix then when they were pulled out of the matrix, back to reality. Not quite as dramatic, but that’s what getting pulled out of my sleep feels like. As if somone grabbed me out of the Matrix and into reality. Except sometimes this reality feels like the Matrix and I think my dreams are the real reality. HAHA another story there.

Twenty One Things African Americans Need To Do According To Tavis Smiley:

1. Register to vote, or shut up!

2. Take all that money out of those stocking caps, tin cans, mattresses, and floorboards and invest money in something. For starters, buy shares of stock in the food you eat and clothes you wear.

3. Learn another language, Ebonics do not count.

4. Stop using the “N” word in the year 2003, especially since Merriam-Webster has announced it isn’t changing the definition.

5. Buy something each week from a black vendor.

6. Stop blaming white folk for 98% of your problems, while giving them 100% of your money.

7. Subscribe to Ebony, JET, Black Enterprise, Essence. Then subscribe to one of the three weeklies: Time, Newsweek, or US News and World Report. After we read about what’s going on in our world, how about knowing what’s going on in theirs? It is, after all, your world.

8. Stop walking past each other and not speaking.

9. Be on time for something … anything!

10. Get an annual check up; herbs do not cure everything!

11. “In all thy ways acknowledge Him (GOD) and He shall direct thy path.” And prioritize this as #1.

12. Stop being jealous of one another, learn to look past the material things and see the person for who they are.(HALLELUJAH!!)

13. Get involved in at least one charitable or voluntary community service.

14. Say a prayer for someone besides yourself.

15. Hug your child/spouse/parent today.

16. LOVE ONE ANOTHER!

17. Learn to Let Go and Let God.

18. Stop talking about it, and be about it.

19. Let GOD order your steps instead of the world.

20. P.U.S.H.!! Pray Until Something Happens!

21. In all that you do, get understanding,(turn the TV OFF, and open a book).

*Don’t just read this, DO IT and encourage others.